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A quick thought…

I have traveled to Utah to get my normal scans done (MRI, CT, and bone scan). It’s really silly how every time I get ready for them, I am so nervous. I am so scared I may hear some news I don’t want to hear. But then in the back of my mind I feel like everything is going to be fine. I heard that this is normal. I hope so. So here I am preparing myself. I am excited to go see some of the nurses that were so good to me. I call them friends. It’s funny how I forget what floor I need to go to see them AND get my scans done. It’s not like I haven’t been there plenty of times before. Maybe someday I will remember, but until then I will be the women who pushes the elevator buttons on each floor to look out to see if I recognize anything!!! I’m crazy.

I am also turning the BIG 30 next week!!! Yeah!!!! I know to some that is still a baby age, but to me it is a mile stone. I remember when I was sick I kept saying that I haven’t even been able to turn thirty yet. I didn’t want to die without turning the BIG 30. Everyone is always talking about them turning thirty and how some didn’t mind it and how some did. I am excited. I can finally be out of the twenties. On to a new number now. I hope the thirties are fabulous. I need them to be. Randy asked me if it is all I thought it would be now. Turning thirty. Well it isn’t. I don’t feel any different. I am just so happy to be alive and here to celebrate another birthday. It will be so dang fun!! I just had to share a few thoughts/feelings. I will have to post after my doctors appointment on Monday. Please say a prayer for me.

I am so grateful for all of the friendships I have. It means so much to me and my family. Becca:)


Here is a picture of me bald and dancing with my physical therapist a day after my surgery. Cancer free!!!


“I Run For Life”

I was watching “Live” TV today, so of course I watched commercials. I saw that all the TV stations are getting together to raise money for Cancer awareness and studies. Katie Couric is hosting this event on Friday September 5th. The website that talks about it is: www. standup2cancer.org I happened to hear that Melissa Etheridge is a breast cancer survivor. During her treatment she wrote a song, “I Run For Life”.

I of course have been out of the loop in the music industry, as most of you know. I had no idea that someone put my feelings into words for a beautiful song. I searched the internet to find this song and listen to it. I found a you tube video of her singing it on a Oprah show. I hope the link worked. If not search you tube for the song and watch it. I probably watched it over and over at least 5 times. I LOVE this song. I have to get it. I WANT this song. If I could only tell Melissa “Thank you”. I would love to hug her and cry. I am so glad she wrote this song. It put me back in my place. Why I fought so hard to live.

Sometimes you get so caught up in life you forget where you were a year ago. I can’t believe it has been a year. I remember laying in the hospital bed dreaming of this day. The day that I can walk, run, hold my husband, hold my children, all of the things that a “normal” mom and wife does everyday. This day is here. Wow. I am still writing my book. I am at a standstill right now though. I wish I was good with words. I could say so much but putting it into sentences that make sense is so hard for me. Is there people out there that could write as I talk to them? I probably couldn’t afford to pay someone like that but hey you never know right? Just another dream I have.

Lately I have been so busy with the day to day things that I forget about what really needs to be done. Why I am HERE. I fought so hard and I need to remember why. I need to remind myself that Heavenly Father saved me for a reason. I just wish he would bop me on the head and tell me what exactly it is. I know that I have touched many lives but how? You know when you feel like there is something that you are suppose to do but you don’t know what that is? I am there right now. I was told yesterday that my absolute favorite Aunt Dawn was diagnosed with skin cancer. There are a lot of details that I am going to leave out for her privacy, but she has cancer. I cried so hard. I love her so much. I didn’t want anyone else to get this awful sickness. I don’t know how to help her. I don’t know what to say to her. I don’t want her to have this. It isn’t fair. She has lived her life serving her family and others. Why her? I love her so much. All I can do it take it day by day. Just like I did when I was sick.

I remember praying to Heavenly Father telling him to take over. It is in his hands now. I need to remember that he is in control not me. I also found out that my Grandpa’s son in Colorado has brain cancer and they think it spread to his lungs. NO! I just don’t want anyone to get this terrible terrible sickness. I want to go and hold my Aunt. I want to be there for her. How can I though. I have so much going on in June. What is important here. I have Ricky’s scout camp, Cameron’s PE at the University, and my church calling. I just want to spend the whole month with her. I want to be there when she gets out of surgery, when she hears any news. I need to stop writing. Here are the lyrics to that beautiful song but you need to listen to the song too.


I Run For Life
 by Melissa Etheridge
Click to play song:
It's been years since they told her about it 
The darkness her body possessed 
And the scars are still there in the mirror 
Every day that she gets herself dressed 
Though the pain is miles and miles behind her 
And the fear is now a docile beast, 
If you ask her why she is still running, 
She'll tell you it makes her complete 
 
I run for hope, I run to feel 
I run for the truth for all that is real 
I run for your mother, your sister, your wife 
I run for you and me my friend 
I run life 
 
It's a blur since they told me about it 
How the darkness had taken its toll 
And they cut into my skin 
And they cut into my body 
But they will never get a piece of my soul 
 
And now I'm still learning a lesson 
To awake when I hear the call 
And if you ask me why I am still running 
I'll tell you I run for her soul 
 
I run for hope, I run to feel 
I run for the truth for all that is real 
I run for your mother, your sister, your wife 
I run for you and me my friend 
I run life 
 
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh 
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh 
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh 
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh 
 
And someday if they tell you about it 
If the darkness knocks on your door 
Remember her, remember me 
We will be running as we have before 
Running for answers, running for more 
 
I run for hope, I run to feel 
I run for the truth, for all that is real 
I run for your mother, your sister, your wife 
I run for you and me my friend 
 
I run for hope, I run to feel 
I run for the truth, for all that is real 
I run for your mother, your sister, your daughter, your wife 
For you and me my friend 
I run for life 
 
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh 

I love you Melissa Etheridge!
Luv,
Becca:)

More Hawaii!!!

Ok, so I heard that some were disappointed that we didn’t have any pictures on the beach. Well…. Maybe that is because there wasn’t many taken and the ones that were, Do you really think I would post on the internet pictures of me in my swimsuit?!!! Here you go…..

See how white I am!!! I was trying to get somewhat of a tan on my stomach when my father-in-law took this terrible picture!!!!

Here is Randy being silly for a great snapshot!!! Look how beautiful the water is in the background. Now do you know why we don’t take any pictures of us at the beach. We also didn’t get much beach time to take pictures.

Here is a picture that I have to explain. This was taken on our first flight out of Salt Lake City, I got my drink and right after I took my first sip, I spilled it. It was practically full with ice and all. We had a movie on the tray and I accidentally hit it. I was worried that it would make it on our DVD player so I wiped it off quickly. Since my sweet hubby was right next to me…. it all made it in his side. My right leg got a little wet but oh boy was his left leg and bum wet. I felt bad. What a klutz. That should have told me how the trip was going from there. The sweet flight attendant gave me another water but made sure she put a lid on it this time. Ha Ha

Aren’t we a cute couple?!!

Here we are at the Punch Bowl. This was amazing.

Here we are at NUUANU PALI State Park.

It is called the windy Hill. I wonder why….

Randy’s brother Chris and his wife Beka.

Randy’s parents. Ohhh cute!!!

I will post some more fun pictures later. This is just a tidbit of the fun we had.

A quick hawaii post for now…..

We made it to Hawaii!!!! We had so much fun. It was so nice to get away for a week and just enjoy ourselves. Ricky missed us lots though. He said it felt like we were gone forever! He was spoiled at the Stacy’s though. He said he would go back there again if he had to, but he really wants us to take him to Hawaii with us again. I would love to. I think it would be fun to have the kids take surf lessons. I wouldn’t mind taking it with them too. I don’t know if I could balance though:) Michael and Cameron were so spoiled at Grammy’s. She took the whole week off of work and played and played with them. I was so glad they had fun.

We took a tour around Oahu lots and lots of times. We got car sick plenty of times too. We stayed in Waikiki and had to drive to the North Shore to go to the good beaches and snorkel places and of course go to the Polynesian Cultural Center and the Temple. It was so stinkin’ fun. I loved the Temple too. We went with Chris and Beka. We snorkeled with Turtles two different times. I was so excited to swim with them. They are so beautiful. We were asked not to touch them, but I couldn’t help myself. Let me tell you, there is a curse if you touch them. I don’t believe in curses but Ray, Chris, and I all got hurt after touching one. Advise: Don’t touch the Turtles. I cut my finger on the coral, Chris cut up his hand on the coral and Ray banged up his knee. Randy however must be safe from all curses. Lucky him. We went to Shark’s Cove and snorkeled. The water and coral there was so beautiful. We saw lots of different fishes and other sea life. Randy spotted a eel. If anyone has heard of my eel story they would know why my heart was beating out of my chest. Let me tell you… When I was 16 my parents took us there. We have never been in the ocean or snorkeled before. It took a lot of getting use to but we managed to get a hang of it. I loved seeing all the fishes and coral life. My sisters and I were getting out a little further than I was comfortable with so I headed back to the shore. Now I had a underwater camera with me and was enjoying myself until……… I looked at the reef and an eel was popping his head out, with his mouth WIDE open, looking up at me. All I can say was I walked on water all the way to the beach. I ran out of the water, fins flopping everywhere, screaming!!! Of course my parents were laughing and didn’t ask if I was alright, they asked if I took a picture!!! Really?! Would you ahve stopped to take one? Now I have since learned that the eels always have there mouths open to breath and catch little sea life. I wish I would have known this before. I have never been so scared before. I thought I had the eel stuck to me somewhere. I was sure of it. Ha Ha. So now when Randy saw the eel and pointed it out to me, I screamed. It was swimming around and didn’t look at us, but still I knew there was one where I was swimming. I soon swam away. I have to say it was so much fun though. We took lots of pictures that I will post little by little. I have to start with the one we took when we were taking a tour around the island. This older gentleman caught my eye. You could only imagine why.



See why?! Here is another one of Randy and I at the Polynesian Cultural Center.



I love Randy so much. I am sure glad I am here today to spend this time with him. More fun stories to come!!!!

That was a little too close!!!

This crazy Texas weather.

Last night we had some severe weather. Around 3:30ish I was woken up from the wind and rain. Randy and I jumped out of bed and looked out our windows. Oh boy was it bad. The trampoline was getting destroyed right before our eyes. When we were looking out all of a sudden we heard Ricky’s little voice saying “mommy”. That is when I knew it had to be loud. They sleep with a fan and music playing. I didn’t think you could hear but I obviously was wrong. We went upstairs to see the weather report. This storm had 80mph winds! I believe it too. A tornado hit in Carrollton a block away from where we use to live. Scary! Our backyard got all the damage. Here is the picture of the Trampoline…..

I haven’t touched it either. Randy said he would fix it when he gets home. Thank goodness. I don’t think I am strong enough to do it anyways. Here is a picture of our poor fence. The wind took down three sections! Randy said it looked weak anyways.

Randy is going to screw then in now. I really don’t want to have to spend any money on a new fence when it is new already!! I think we can fix it though. We’ll see. Did you notice a portion of the tree is missing too?!! Now here is a picture of our grill the was turned from the wind!!!!! It is suppose to lay on the bricks……

At least our front of our house is still there!!

Anyways, I thought it would be fun to show you how close that storm was. It did a lot of damage to other homes and businesses. At least we still have a home. I have to say that this storm was the first storm here in Texas that I was actually scared. I usually sleep through them. Not last night! Our boys have never been woken up either. I think Ricky thought we were having a tornado outside. It was sad but cute. Thank goodness we didn’t plant our little flowers we bought the other night. They would have been destroyed. I thought I would share a few photos!

Becca:)