I have been praying about the idea of Home Schooling for a couple of years now. When Michael went to Kindergarten last year he begged me to teach him at home. I really never thought about it much until he kept asking. I at first thought it was because he was a shy quite kid. Then I thought that he just liked me teaching him pre-school and wasn’t use to someone else teaching him. Then this year he is still asking. It’s not that he doesn’t like school or he is getting picked on. I have checked. He just wants to be with me. I wondered if it was because he is scared that I am going to get sick again? This is why I took it to a higher power. I received my answer awhile ago. I just didn’t want to admit it. I have looked at all avenues of home schooling. There are so many ways to do it. I had no idea. The nice blessing that I have is a lot of friends that home school. I was able to ask lots of questions and talk about my concerns with them. Heavenly Father has put these women in my life to help me along. I am so grateful to all of them.

So last Friday night at our ward Temple night I was hit hard with the answer. Now how to inform Randy that I was going to just do it. You see we both grew up in public schools. We are just fine. You can say we survived. Why now? Why do I have such a strong feeling to keep Ricky and Michael at home? Then I figured it out. I am blessed, very blessed to be able to stay at home and take care of things. Randy is an awesome priesthood holder. We are very lucky to be in the situation that we are in. Why not.

Every morning I wake the kids up, bark at them to get ready and rush them out the door. Then when they come home I bark at them to do their chores, eat some dinner, and off to our sports or other evening events. Then I bark at them to hurry and shower and off to bed. When do I get some time just to be their mom? When can I figure out what they want to do in life? What is their hobby? What are their goals?

Life is so busy that we just keep getting by. I don’t want to do this anymore. I want to be their mom. I want to teach them about the things in life. They don’t need to be told what to do all day at school and then at home. I long to be with them. I want to have that bond that mother’s have with their sons. I want to raise good priesthood holders. I want them to want to serve the Lord and go on a mission. I want them to have fun learning. I don’t want them stressing about what they are going to get on a test or what grade they will get on their report card. Learning should be fun. Not rushed. Not held back because of another student that just isn’t able to keep up. My boys need to have fun. Life is so short. I know this. If I can stay home and teach my children about life, church, and other things. Wow. How awesome it feels to just step back and think about what it would be like. Yes, it will be stressful at times. Yes, it will be crazy. I am willing to take on this new life.

I am ready to be a mom/teacher/friend. I am scared to death. I am excited. I am nervous that I won’t be able to teach them right. But I have faith in my Father in Heaven that this is what my family needs. I know it with all my heart. Right now my kids need a mom. Not a ruler. I can’t wait to teach them. I can’t wait to have scripture study with them. I can’t wait to read books with them. I now have ALL day with them!!!! I will now have that time that my heart aches for.

Telling Randy was so scary. I was sure that he wouldn’t agree with me. BUT, he did. He has his concerns just like me. He felt what my heart was saying. He is going to trust in me. I can’t believe it. I guess it is all in the timing. It was the right time to start teaching them at home. I have a lot to learn. I have a lot to figure out, but I know it will all work out. I have faith.